This one time at band camp...

so it's finallllly here! The end of my precious, relaxing summer! I started band camp yesterday. Yesterday was cake. from 8-11 I helped train the new fish on basic marching commands and stuff like that. We also played games, which was pretty amusing. ;D After that, not so much fun! from 1-4 I sorted music to be passed out today. It took FOREVERRRRR!!!!!

Today was even more tiring than yesterday by A LOT! We actually went outside today to start practicing. I've gotta say, I'm super proud of my fishies! They worked so hard, and are amazing for beginners. I'm such a good section leader ;) Oh yeah, so I'm section leader this year! I'm finally in charge! It really seems like just yesterday I was a fish myself.

well anyway, I'm off to start my AP bilogy homework. UGH! The bad thing about summer band is that it means school is almost here again.

xoxo

My Twin

So lately I'v been hanging out a lot with my amazing friend, Andrea. We're practically twins now! We always either say things in unison, or think the same things. It's super weird but also cool. :)
Like I've said before, she's AMAZING! There's no way to be bored when she's around.
So this is all the fun stuff we've done:
1. went to see eclipse
2. ate at freebirds with rachel, saw eclipse AGAIN, and then had a movie night sleepover
3. worked at the derby together...not usually fun, but it is when it's both of us! and eric. :P
4. we went to go see the Sorcerer's Apprenitce with Eric and Kirk.
5. had a fun time at the crew party!!! haha it was sooooo much fun after everyone left to play pool. ;P

soooo yeaaah! We always have fun together. I can't wait to hang out again!
I LOVE YOU ANDREA MACKEYYYYY!
XOXO


p.s. JJDD!!!!!!!!!!! ;D

manga

okay I haven't posted in a while again...
Lately I've been readiing manga. So, basically that's the reason why. hehe!
here's a list of what I've read/am reading/will read. Or more like, what I can remember off the top of my head!

read:
Ultra Maniac
Shugo Chara
Shugo Chara Encore!
Special A
Godchild (super creepy amazingness)
Shinshi Doumei Cross
Giri Koi
Boyfriend
Good Morning Call
Millenium Snow
Full Moon Wo Sagashite
Kamichma Karin
Meru Puri
Anta Nante Okotowari!
Aoi Kiseki
Gyutto Shite Chuu
Momo Lover

reading:
Gakuen Alice (Alice Academy)
Faster Than A Kiss
Shiawase Kissa Sanchoume
Barajou no Kiss
Watashi ni XX Shinasai!
La Corda D'oro
Toraware no Minoue(Captive Heart)
Kamichama Karin Chuu
Love Berrish

will read:
Hana Kimi
Vampire Knight
Absolute Boyfriend
Koko ni Iru Yo!
Kitchen Princess

alright awesome. I'm done for today.
PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you dance...

...because this post is all about dancing!

Alright. So I had a dance recital last saturday and I gotta say....it actually went prettttty well! That was a shocker! I mean, I thought not being able to find my ballet shoe ribbons the night before at 11pm was like a premonition. Thats the right word, right? hehe! Anyway, everything was going wrong the day of the recital. My hair was being pulled by all my dance teammates(?) and I was wearing the wrong type of bra AND I forgot my leotard for the dumb single ladies opener. AUGH! It was all so frustrating. I swear, you wouldn't understand unless you dance. If that weren't bad enough, we all messed up during our dress rehersal. We did each dance twice and both sucked more than a straw. LUCKILY, the actual recital went better. I guess I was just psyching myself out. I got dressed in time and everything! The biggest miracle of all is my ending for the Poker Face number. Especially since I learned it that very day!!! Take my advice, don't EVER EVER EVERRR do that EVER.........EVER. To end the whole thing, I got a trophy! Well, everyone does, but I got a bigger trophy. Hehehehe! I'm such a dedicated person...pffffft!

So I'm gonna take summer classes! WOOOOO! I'm taking ballet D apprentice and Pointe classes. I'm super excited. Well, kind of! I'm not excited about the pain or the teacher! Ms. Sheila is a B**** to thee max. She gets things done though, so thats good. Now, the pain. Pointe shoes are NO JOKE. I know I'll end up with a bloody toe. I just know it...It's totally unavoidable.

So even though I know I'll suffer, why am I excited? Well, that's because I love to dance. :) I've always wanted to be a ballerina! And I guess....I am? Anyway, since I have to take ballet D in ordre to take pointe classes, I won't be doing drill team. It's much more fun, I know, but ballet comes first and pointe shoes are on my things to get/do before I die. Lovely, I know.

I won't stop loving what I do, and you shouldn't either!

love, nemoliciouss

SUMMER!

OH MY GOD! IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!!!!!!
I know I haven't posted in a while, but I've been super busy! First off I was super busy with my finals. Second, I was practicing intenisvely for my dance recital last saturday. But, it's SUMMER now and I'll definitely have more time to post. Wooooooo! So anyway. I'd like to take the time to post some things I'm happy about.

1. SUMMER (k duh!)
2. I don't EVER have to take french at MHS ever againnnnnn.
3. I'm gonna be a senior next year! (ok so I'm half happy, half sad about this one...but still. It counts!!!)
4. I have time to play sims 3
5. I'm gonna start using pointe shoes this summer! (stay tuned for my next dance post!)
6. chillin'
7. My dance recital went well
8. Observing animals at the zoo for biology

now, things I'm NOT happy about:

1. The stupid things happening in band this year. (more on this later)
2. ACT and SAT stuff
3. 78 semester average for peecal and 89....EIGHTYYYY NINEEE... for french. I HATE HER.
4. Only having a few months left with my soon to be not boyfriend. :(
5. Having to start thinking about college...and my future...
6. being stuck at home doing nothing because I basically have NO friends.
7. remembering a certain thing that happened a few weeks ago and not being able to stop from crying. aughhh sfjkgkdfnghjkdhgdf I have so many questions. :(
8. not only not having friends, but being stuck at home so long that I begin to get depressed.

okok so there's probably more, but I'm done for now. I'll be posting a dance post right after this to make up for lost time.
I love blogging....

love, nemoliciouss

Poetry

So I haven't been able to post anything new today until now. I've been working on this poetry notebook that is due tomorrow. 14 poems of 6-8 questions each, plus I have to write my own poem at the end!!!! I'm on poem number 5 right now...this is so not looking too well! Next year, I'll most def not procrastinate like this...yeah right! Haha! Oh well! What's done is done, and I can't change it. Like other things right now...

-nemoliciouss

Andrea Mackey

So there's this girl named Andrea Mackey. She's funny, nice, has a good personality, and is an AMAZING dancer! She can't play tennis to save her life, but she makes up for it nonetheless.

I love her so much!!!! I've had the worst day today. I didn't eat, felt sad, cried a bit. But that doesn't mean it was ALLLL sad. I smiled and laughed a little when I watched Mean Girls. LOVE THAT MOVIE! What made my day sososo much better was...well, her. Somehow, she called me, knew something was up...not that my status updates on fb were happy at all :P So we went to play tennis. And like I said before, she totally stinks XD but it's ok because it was probably much more fun than actually playing an intense game. She brought her ipod player and we listened to music while we played. Obviously, we danced and played. We even danced across all the tennis courts! WHAT A WORKOUT...I swear! I was so sweaty afterwards. But anyway, it was amazing. We took pictures, talked, danced, had fun! There is no way I can't smile around her. The pictured attached is of her and me. I think it's so prettttttyyy! It's my favorite picture now! AAAAAAHHHH! honestly, words can't express how lucky I feel to have her as a friend. If anyone else ever met her, they would know why I love her so much. Anyway, thank you Andrea, for making me smile and laugh today.

love,

nemoliciouss.

p.s. I really miss him...

Day 1

We were supposed to play tennis today, but that of course didn't happen. I was looking foward to it too! I wonder what he's doing right now? So, now that that's cancelled, this is how I spent my day so far:

morning: woke up, not wanting to. Went running with my dog, Taco. I've decided that running, as much as I hate it, is the only thing that helps me forget about my troubles.

afternoon: I spent some time listening to music on youtube! haha guess what kind? hint: I'm sad and I like alternative rock. After that, sorted mail for my mom. Now, I'm writing this and watching Mean Girls.

Later: might go out with some friends. Daniel and James are gonna try to eat some huge burgers to get their picture on a wall! haha! love it. Maybe I'll be in a better mood later. Still, I can't help but think it's a pity invite. I don't know really. But I'm not complaining. I need to forget...

so yeah...that's day one of the beginning...or the end. I'm still not sure how I'm defining this part of my life yet.

xoxo,
nemoliciouss

Nothing Gold Can Stay

So I know I just a while ago posted my first blog post, but I really can't sleep and I just absolutely HAVE to share this poem...although I only have two subscribers and I'm pretty sure no one else is reading this. :P So, I guess it's ok to write as many posts as I want, whenever I want...? Well anyway, I so relate to the following poem. Story of my life basically.

Nature's first green is gold,

Her hardest hue to hold.

Her early leaf's a flower;

But only so an hour.

Then leaf subsides to leaf.

So Eden sank to grief,

so dawn goes down to day.

Nothing gold can stay.

-Robert Frost

This man is amazing! I love this poem so much! It's short, but to the point. So much can be taken from this. Honestly, he's right. Basically, good things never last. Unless you're obviously really really lucky to have the most picture perfect, movie worthy life. Where no matter how awful things get, things will always turn out right in the end, because you're the protagonist, and no one wants to see a sad ending....that is of course, unless it's Jodi Picoult we're talking about!!! I believe you Robert Frost. Nothing gold can stay. If everything could stay as perfect as that one special moment. When you fell in love, when you got your first bike, when you made a best friend...for life, when you had your frist kiss...or maybe your second one. Just to name a few. God, I could go on forever!

Iswear, I'm not as emo as I'm sounding so far! I'm a happy person...was...am...will be. who knows. Tomorrow is another day, and tomorrow I will decode my emotions as best I can. Or maybe I 'll just pour them out. Whatever that means! XD I'm just rambling on now. Words are escaping from my fingertips, and my right pinky decides whether or not to keep them where they are!

much love that I wish I could feel right now,

nemolicouss

The Beginning

So I was writing this during BCIS, but the bell rang! Now, hours later, I totally feel different mood wise than I did during that class. That is why honestly, BCIS is the best thing that ever happened to me. I not only have one, but four AMAZING people that I truely care about! It's been a while since I felt wanted...loved. I mean as a friend of course. So, enough about that for a bit. I made this blog because Lauren Dautel told me I should! haha! And you know what? I love her for getting me to do it. I feel like this is...The Beginning!

Which leads me to something else. Is it really the beginning?...or the end? Have I pent up too much emotion that finally, I can't take anymore? Or have I begun a totally new journey? I'm not so sure! Especially not now. I honestly don't know. Right now, I'm not sure what I feel. I guess you could say I'm numb. Too much emotion...too suddenly at the same time...I'm so confused! I think I've gone to a totally different topic now...but anyway. The beginning or the end? of something good or something bad? the start of a new life or the end of an amazing one? God I'm super emo! haha! I feel nothing, empty...yet at the same time, I feel like my heart is slowly, but surely, breaking to pieces that can't be put back together.

Love,
nemoliciouss