The Beginning

So I was writing this during BCIS, but the bell rang! Now, hours later, I totally feel different mood wise than I did during that class. That is why honestly, BCIS is the best thing that ever happened to me. I not only have one, but four AMAZING people that I truely care about! It's been a while since I felt wanted...loved. I mean as a friend of course. So, enough about that for a bit. I made this blog because Lauren Dautel told me I should! haha! And you know what? I love her for getting me to do it. I feel like this is...The Beginning!

Which leads me to something else. Is it really the beginning?...or the end? Have I pent up too much emotion that finally, I can't take anymore? Or have I begun a totally new journey? I'm not so sure! Especially not now. I honestly don't know. Right now, I'm not sure what I feel. I guess you could say I'm numb. Too much emotion...too suddenly at the same time...I'm so confused! I think I've gone to a totally different topic now...but anyway. The beginning or the end? of something good or something bad? the start of a new life or the end of an amazing one? God I'm super emo! haha! I feel nothing, empty...yet at the same time, I feel like my heart is slowly, but surely, breaking to pieces that can't be put back together.

Love,
nemoliciouss